i have work in two hours, boohoo. well at least im opening, so i get to leave early.. whoopteedoo :] christmas in the park tonight cus manangski (jennifer) will be in town from san diego. i love christmas in the park, especially the churros.

i hate my phone.. like i never have signal. NOT even one bar.. ughh. well i should be thankful i even have a phone, so PRAISE GOD!

janice is home. i need the emphasize that more cus it really is a big deal. JANICE IS HOME!!!  its such a relief to have her home, foreal tho. i dont know how i get by without her and susan sometimes. LAAAAAAAV THEM! the cutest asian at harvard is due home on the 19th.. YESSSSSS!!

exactly a year ago, i left for the philippines. WOW! doesn't seem so long ago. thinking about wat happened last year, i realized.. im not the same person i was a year ago. but then again, im not the same person i was last week.. or even yesterday.

ok, so it urks me when people go out of their way to make me feel like kaka. newsflash, you're not perfect either. im worthy of forgiveness, just as much as you are. i dont deserve to be treated as though im inferior than you. i know i dont, u know how i know? cus God told me so.. so booyah!

let go.

so i have this one friend that i met just this semester in one of my classes. we got to talking yesterday and he asked me, "Have you ever asked God to change somebody.. but He ended up changing YOU instead." i thought to myself.. and nah, i didn't think it had ever happened to me.

today, it hit me. i'm tired of asking God to change this certain somebody in my life. I've begged and pleaded, asking God to change him. I want God to change ME.

nobody ever looks at my xanga.

his hands won't ever compare. EVER.

i trust in God's plan. even tho it hurts soo bad.. i will walk by faith and not by sight.

yaddaadaadingdonggg.. hiii :]

okay, so.. school is coming to an end and summer is HERE!! well not technically HERE HERE HERE cus i still have three more finals, but it's preeety darn close :] i can't believe my first year of college is (almost)OVER. i remember the first day of school like it was yesterday, i even remember what i wore!! weirddd...

my english final that i took on saturday was about change.. and it made me think. people are soo afraid of change, but without change we'd live in status quo. and honestly, i dont want that. i want to grow.. in Christ, that is. fashooooo :] i know God is putting me through this change for a reason, His reason.. and that's all i need to know.

i want to look for a new job. maybe work two jobs? cus at tomatina im only working twice a week and since summer is (almost) here, i'll have LOTSA freee time.

i want an iPOD. there isn't any purple ones, huh?? im sad. and i want pj to put songs on my iPOD for me :] CHEAAAAA!! oh, and me and clare were looking through pj's 23984723 list of songs.. and i found my NEW favorite song. after all by jonathan clay. it's one of those songs that hit you right where it hurts. listen to it.. it's GRRRRREATTTTTTT :]

"and after all i dont regret a thing, i want to thank you for showing me this life. cus i know you, and i know you'll be alright." yepp.

so yesterday, i was at pj/desirae's house and i weighed myself. i've gained ahhhhhh!! WHYYY??? this summer, im going to LOSE IT!! newhoo, u remember back in the day when people used to call each other "fat-so" Ever wonder why it's "fat-so" Why is there a "so" Sooo watt?? soo fat, yes i know.. but why does the "so" come after the "fat?" hmm.. sowwie.

encounter this weekend. that means i won't be seeing janice wahhhhhh :( it's okay bcus there'll be tons of US TIME this summer. i get teary thinking about them. even tho we're SOOO different and we're now living three completely different lives, i know they'll ALWAYS be here for me.

i think im going to the beach tomorrow? after my final? with cathe, ienne, and nessa. hekaa random, but YIPEEEEEE cus i've been wanting to go.

we need more yellow gatorade in this house. my mom needs to go to costco.

i really need to clean my room. and pack.. find my sleeping bag. study for my asian american studies final TOMORROW.

i think this picture was taken the summer before senior yr. in one of those weird japanese picture booth thingies. they make me happy, can u tell??

okay, that's it.. HAVE A WONDERFUL DAYY ERRONE. God bless :]

today was the first time i missed class this semester.. it was only psychology and the teawcher talks about pointless stuff neways.

i always do this in my head.. i think back a year before during the same month and try to remember what kind of person i was and what i was doing. soo, last february.. i got with josh on the first. umm.. still practicing for janice's cotillion which was coming up in march.. i remember superbowl at mimi's house. valentines day with aaron and janice, i miss them. sadies dance was near valentines day. the of the dance, during lunch, i  hit my lip on josh's shoulder and got a blood clog on my lip. went to the snow trip, i think that was in february? i didn't tell my parents i was going, i just left cus i was mad at them. came home from the snow trip and saw that we had a dog. so lucky's been apart of the family for a year now. ok that's all i could remember.

anyways, im hungry and im craving a burrito.